T-Shirt TIme!

After a day at the beach, my family and I decided that a day indoors was exactly the relief our burnt skin needed.

For as long as I can remember my family has gathered at my Nonie's (my grandma) house for all occasions. So traditionally we all met up there geared up with our acrylic paint, hobby lobby T-Shirts, googly eyes, markers and a bunch of glitter! Our mission was to decorate baby onsies for the little one in my tummy! Colors were kept as nutural as possible but that is hard when you have everyone wishing for a certain gender! I was surprised by my boyish colors when all along I have never cared if I had a boy or girl first, was this a sign that I am hoping for a little man deep down inside of me? Or is this just the mood I was in for the dY? Either way, our baby will soon be wearing adorable shirts that were made with love!

From Mama to Baby!

From Auntie Eia to Baby!

Cousins Galore!

A day at the beach is full of smiles,laughter and memories. As I sit back and watch my sisters cake their kids with sunblock, strap on the life jackets and follow the kids around the water to always be by their sides, I notice something blissful. My baby will never be alone or grow up in a small quiet family. Our baby will become number 6 of the kids under 11 and will have enough love from all to last a lifetime! I can picture myself next summer with a baby that will be experiencing the beach, mountains, and many more adventures for the first time. No matter where we go my family will be there to share the wonderful memories with our new little family and the many more to come!

A wonderful day in Colorado with the family!

Noah will be the closest cousin in age to our baby to be!

Jaylee is our families little Chocolate Woman!

Pregnant at Last!

I started this blog a little over a month ago to help guide me through my process of trying to conceive. I had no idea where this would take me or if I would stick with it. After a few bumps in the road I have finally made it to my desired destination just to realize I was beginning a new journey. A journey that was started by the digital words that read to me "Pregnant".

I guess I believed myself to be defected and never reach my goal of pregnancy, so the thought of what I would do when it became reality never crossed my mind. There are no words to describe how I felt when I discovered there was a precious life growing inside of me. The warmth that spread across my body along with happiness and excitement was a new type of love that I have never felt before. I wondered, how have I gone this long without this love and still managed to feel satisfied? I am going to enjoy every second of every minute being pregnant and love my baby with all of my heart! I have finally made it to my goal and now, Fernando and I get to prepare ourselves for the journey to come of parenthood.

Somewhat of a Hypochondriact

Everyone always knows a person that is always sick or acts sick. They are experts when it comes to diagnosing their own illnesses and never seek medical expertise.

Lately that's how I have been feeling only not with sickness but with early pregnancy symptoms. I believe this is caused by too much research and not any personal experience. It's so frustrating that I'm not allowing myself the pleasure of just sitting back and letting nature do its own job. Yet I always keep thinking that I'm experiencing a pregnancy symptom. I'm looking at every angle of my body and imaging a slight change of appearance when really there is none to be found.

At the back of my mind I'm wondering if I'm that one of a few that experience no early pregnancy symptoms and won't know that I'm pregnant until I'm going into labor. Is it just me or do other women trying to conceive for their first time also feel this way? Until the day when I actually become pregnant comes I believe I will continue to have questions similar to these run through my head continuously.

Back to the Simple Life

Knowing when to go back to the basics is very important. Familiar places and faces help you to reach your place of peace. Stop trying to find peace and just place yourself in a peaceful environment, there is where you will find yourself once again.

That's what path I am on from now on. No more worrying, becoming anxious, or driving my loved ones (including myself) to the cliffs. My place of Zen has always been and will continue to be by the sides of my family!

Enjoying the simple pleasure of giving myself a pedicure!

My niece and nephews along the side of my sisters and brother! A great day at Boulder Falls allowed me to just relax!

One In a Million

I know that I haven't wrote since I was robbed at my job, but I made it my goal to get back on track keep up with my daily writing. They say that being a victim of a robbery has the chances of one in a million, I guess that just makes me rare. What is so shocking to me is that just yesterday my job was robbed for a second time in less than three weeks. I am so relieved that it was my day off because I would have turned in my keys. My closest friend that I work with was really taken back by the incident. She just had a baby four months ago and I cant even imagine how that would feel knowing that she was almost taken away from her baby for good.

For the past month I have been stressed out and not getting enough sleep. I know this is effecting my body physically and is not good for TTC. I have a job interview tomorrow so I'm crossing my fingers and praying that this job is in my favor. I know that I need to get out of the financial business and I hope that it happens soon.